Originally published April 15, 2018, this piece spoke to my perceived worth and social/emotional isolation, a result of many years of repression of trauma and self, and then way it affected and was affected by my relationships with others. It is very meaningful to me to look back at how far I have come from … Continue reading Poetry Reading – “Assumed Unwanted”
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Poetry Reading – “For You”
Originally published April 15, 2018, this piece was a statement of understanding, and a promise, one I still aim to keep to this day. "For You" - Recorded 3/7/2021 - Auroraboros - Objects, and the Distance Between Them The original piece is below for reference, and can be found in its entirety at https://objectsanddistance.com/2018/04/15/for-you/ When … Continue reading Poetry Reading – “For You”
The Fall of the Vapor Mystic, Part IV (What We Do for Love)
Why do I even write these days? Why do I try? Why do I try as hard as I do when clearly there are more effective and efficient approaches. Someone has it figured out... Not me. I see so many others who write poems that reach audiences of hundreds or even thousands. I see … Continue reading The Fall of the Vapor Mystic, Part IV (What We Do for Love)
In Each and Every Thing Which Crawls or Walks or Even Slowly Grows as Moss or Lichen
Know that Though I have said so many things To so many of you And though you have responded With such kindness and love that it draws the tears from my eyes as from a well These things are only temporary; I will be gone some day And there may be no person to speak … Continue reading In Each and Every Thing Which Crawls or Walks or Even Slowly Grows as Moss or Lichen
I Paused Ever So Slightly Today
I paused Ever so slightly today, As my feet passed between shadows and sunlight streaming down… Warm and… It has been so long Since I have felt the glow on my face. My spirit ran free last night. I opened my mouth wide And set loose from between my teeth, Not quite words, Not quite … Continue reading I Paused Ever So Slightly Today
An Empty Sort of Calm
There is An empty sort of calm That comes on days such as this An awareness That transcends expectations While at the very same time Reaffirming each of them One by one As we age We learn to be alone To hold our own All the while still clinging To that primal urge To be … Continue reading An Empty Sort of Calm
Full Spectrum Burst
When I feel Displaced From reality My tendency has always been To retreat To the world In my head There are mountains there Which only I can scale There are depths Which only I can swim There are spectres there as well… Which only I can see Formed of my own flesh and blood The … Continue reading Full Spectrum Burst
Assumed Unwanted
I am always in a state of Perceived rejection Assumed alone Assumed unwanted Assuming Welcome: Overstayed I walk with Head down Watching the earth Move Unfettered by My feet upon its gracious surface There is Nowhere I belong More so than Where I do not A consequence of Years spent Telling myself In voiceless whispers … Continue reading Assumed Unwanted
For You
When I tried to kiss you You turned away And I felt My stomach Digesting my heart The room grew Still Silent And the walls became Far too close When I tried to kiss you I can only imagine The thoughts That coursed through your head The memories And lasting pain That you endured My … Continue reading For You