I have started to work my way through from the beginning with these recordings, though I will likely jump around as I am inspired. It was really interesting to revisit this today, to see the rather dark place where I started from (though with a note of curious optimism towards the end). It was quite validating to know that I no longer feel this way, that my reasons for writing have grown far beyond a desperation to encompass more, still as a vital form as self-care, but with a broader scope and with plenty else for additional support. I feel like this would be a very different piece now, and hope I can possibly revisit it in the future.
The original piece is below for reference, and can be found in its entirety at https://objectsanddistance.com/2018/02/11/why-i-write/
I do not write
For amusement
Or out of boredom
But rather
I write to survive
Words
Have so many meanings
And those meanings themselves
Adapt to context
I write
Because I have a lot to say
But no-one
Who really wants to listen
Or is able
To hear me
I write
Because I don’t have anything else
Because I am so alone
That I fear
Myself
Without an outlet
I write
Because these words
Spill from my heart
Into my mind
And I am drowning-
This dredging
Of words, lines, phrases
This outpouring
Is a desperate bid
To stay afloat
I write
Because I don’t know
What else to do
Because I want
You
Anyone
To know
Me
I write
Because I write
The same as I wake each day
Because I don’t know if there is an option
If I want there to be
If there should be
I suppose I should wonder:
What might compel you
To read
If you are reading
At all?
And what might compel you
To share
What you hold in your heart
With me
With the world?
Would I hear it?
Or am I too busy
With my own words
To notice
That everyone
Has a story
Has water pouring in
And is in need
Of relief?
Objects, and the Distance Between Them 
I like the questions you pose in this, especially the last one.
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Mmm thank you… When I was reading through this, it was really a bit of odd, I felt worried about the former me! Then the questions began, and I really reconnected. I am so glad you liked them as well.
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It sounds like reading back through this poem provided a powerful experience for you. What a gift you have given yourself.
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So many profound truths in this about why I write too.. I love this so much..
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Oh, what a joy to hear from you today, and what an honor to share mutual motivations. It does not surprise me… You and I, we have been “cut from the same cloth”, as they say. 🤗
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True that makes me smile and brings a lift to my heart .. blessings 🦋💙🦋
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It has made me smile so much. This was the first thing I saw when I checked my phone after waking up today, and it has set a very good mood for my day. Thank you and bless you just the same. 🌗💙💠
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Aww its bed time here have a beautiful day…🤗
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Sleep well! Sweet dreams to you. 😴💤
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Thank you so much.
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Love the last lines; they are so packed with deepening, reflective thought!
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Thank you very much. It is something I still think about often. I know lately, I have been a bit withdrawn, I have mostly just been creating, producing content and maybe not as good at paying attention to all the amazing writing that my friends here are putting out.
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