A Canvas for my Dreams

I don’t know how to say what I want to say
Alone with my thoughts again today
And I am losing hope
Wondering if it will always be this way

I have fallen
At times
Deep into the caverns of my mind
And what worries me most
Isn’t the rapidity or depth with which I decline
So much as the utter abandon to which I find
I am inclined

I am calm and at peace
Productive and focused
My inner mind released
Almost wishing I could just sink
Until there is nothing more beneath
Until I am so far from the rest of this world
That all life outside of myself is but a memory

Over time
And through experience
I learn to love the nothingness in me
To embrace the shadows just as I do the light
For even though they lack natural, visual beauty
I can see
They are
A rendition of what could be
A manifestation of infinite possibility
A canvas for my dreams

27 thoughts on “A Canvas for my Dreams

    1. I do believe I am. It shouldn’t surprise me that you ask this, though it still did to some extent. This is actually a heavy revision of the initial writing, the original a product of a much less optimistic mindset. I had worked on this with the idea of turning it into something positive, reflecting the healing journey I had taken since I wrote it. But it looks like you clearly see the conflict within it… I respect that, and am relieved/grateful in a way. Thank you.

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      1. I feel that often as well… Then, I lay, and I think, and I just observe myself, as myself, and I remember all of the things I have overcome in the past, and I tell myself that there is no way I am going to let myself lose to… myself…

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    1. Well, that is one of the greatest compliments a writer can receive… To elicit an emotional response and form a genuine connection. Thank you for the open read and for commenting to let me know of your experience.

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    1. ๐Ÿ™‚ Oh, thank you so much, Adnama. The physical proximity is not generally the barrier, more emotional and mental, so your comment is quite relatable and appreciate. Sometimes, a connection with another human with positive intent/spirit over vast distances can mean more than any interaction with those who are nearby. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. Wow, I am truly honored. I genuinely consider this to be one of the highest regards a writer can receive. Though I don’t generally write with the explicit intent to elicit a response, it is a great honor to know that my words have done so. It is particularly meaningful because everything that I write is a reflection of my own experiences and place in life, so knowing that someone such as yourself was moved by my writing and found it relatable creates a meaningful connection and demonstrates empathy… Thank you, sincerely.

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      1. I know what you mean, a feel the same way about writing. And most of the time, I just feel like your work is really relatable. Just keep up the good work, you’re truly talented ๐Ÿ˜Š

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    1. Thank you so much. There has just been a lot of change in my life. I have been displaced, physically and emotionally, and just needed to process. I believe I have processed the bulk of it. Thank you so much for the well wishes… It means a lot to me.

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      1. Our life goes through so many upheavals. Physical displacement is easier to contend with, its the emotional ones which take a long time to process. Good to know you are on the road to healing.
        My best wishes are always with you. Your words speak to me.
        You are kindly welcome.

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      2. That is so true. For all of the importance we place of the physical world, and the lack thereof on emotional existence, it seems that damage in the latter tends to wound us the deepest. Thank you so much for the the healing words. I take them to heart.

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